I am just a girl, trying to find a niche in this world.

So i am sitting here on a quiet Thursday, wondering the basic questions that have been wondering through my head lately.

What am I going to do with my life...
Where am I going to find a new job...let alone in the winter...
How do I fix the funny cymbal in the song I am editing...

haha...the last one, not a normal question, but my first quest in the land of Garageband turned out alright...i survived...haha

I am thinking about going back to school...again. And I am wondering what to do and where to go. I don't know what I want to do. I am thinking about either a Business in Music Entertainment or Audio Production and Engineering...I've always like music and would love to try my hand at it, but I don't want to waste my time and money if it turns out it doesn't work out...

Maybe I should just go for it and quit second guessing myself.

I guess I just figure that I am old enough to know what I should be doing with my life and I should be doing said thing. I am just tired of being unsure of what I want to do and where I am going. I don't want to be here forever.

Maybe I'll save up some money (when I find another job that has no potential for growth) and travel for a year. I would like that. I love traveling and living out of a suitcase. Maybe I'll try my hand at writing something that isn't a fanfic and go that route. I would like that too. Maybe I'll say screw it all and work odd job and use that to make my way around the world. That would work for me too. Maybe I'll be like Sadie Harrison and take a job as a receptionist at a major record label and end up taking over and turning down a job at the UN. That would be fun too lol.

Well, I'll think of something.

Let me rephrase that...

I'll try and come up with something...

Shut up I know I need to be more optimistic, but right now, it isn't happening.

I am kinda excited...

This weekend I am gonna start Yoga. I am excited about it. I need something to do and I've always been interested in yoga. My WiiFit yoga sessions aren't enough for me anymore. I want to try different types. I've heart Hot Yoga is amazing...so I can't wait to try it. I think I am probably going to go on Sunday to Savage and do the Yoga 4 Mindful Movements, but if I end up there Saturday I think I am going to try Yoga 4 Flowing Strength.

Yoga is the one thing I haven't tried from the Blood Type article and it comes strongly recommended by one of the people I strive to be more like. So, like I have said I AM EXCITED. You may think it's dumb for me to be excited, but why not get excited about the little things in life? Nothing big really happens around here so little things is all I got.

WIDEawake

It is one o'clock and I am still wide awake, so i figure why not try and be a little constructive. i don't really have much to say right now, i just need something to do. Be prepared for some late night rambles...if they come. I've been watching Falcon Beach and now i have beach fever. it is the middle of winter here and it hasn't made it over 20*F at all this month, making it the coldest since '91, and we all know how '91 went. i have the urge to become one of the snowbirds we occasionally make fun of...that made me laugh and feel a little hypocritical. But i will never be a snowbird, even though it might be nice when winter is this bad already...it's no where near over. i downloaded a trial of photoshop to see if i still got my mad skillz (yes...skillz...with a z), so beware of my dabblings appearing here. i love to do the graphic design thing so yeah...i don't have photoshop for my mac, just my pc that doesn't work well. now i'll have it for a month. I want to go on a vacation...i want to go back to TDOT, but that isn't gonna happen this year. I am going on a cruise in the end of January to the bahamas. it should be fun. i've never been on a cruise before, so we'll see how it goes. For some reason i have the song from Snow White stuck in my head. you know the one that she sings into the wishing well...and the prince jumps over the wall and sings with her...it is annoying the crap out of me...i think the kids watched it too many times...i am glad it's in the mail to go back to netflix. i've been having a Cory Lee day too, i have been listening to her stuff since well, now it's like two days ago considering it is now wednesday morning...so it hasn't been one day...it's been like two or three. I think WADADM is on my iPod twice...i need to fix that...

i have to start thinking of my goals for the upcoming year...not that they'll get fully accomplished, but hey...let's try and be positive...i have a few ideas and will talk about them later. maybe. if i feel like it...like i said late night rambles...haha...reminds me of instant star, in the episode where jude had to buy studio time cuz darius is being a dick and wants her to take a break from her career and liam gives her a 7 am studio time. then jude walks in and tommy says "this had better be good harrison, the last time i saw saturday morning it was still friday night." haha...then they scream in the sound booth before singing Not Standing Alone...with jude standing on her head. then liam kicks them out and jude talks to him and gets mad cuz he is a dick too. she then goes and buys the rehearsal place and records NSA there. good episode...gotta love S2...

well, i think i am gonna go and work on RR. there is gonna be some camera mooning in the near future so i am gonna see how it all plays out.

peace out!
xoxo

Here's The Deal.

So with the whole vegetarian thing...I only made it a week. Or to keep things positive...YES I MADE IT A WEEK!!!!!

lol but yeah

My eating habit actually worsened when trying to be a vegetarian so I said SCREW IT.

So, yeah. Done with that. But I am taking up Yoga. That is something I have been wanting for a while and have a couple friends that want to do it with me, so it should be fun. There is a class we are going to try this weekend...cuz the first taste is always free...so I am gonna try that.

I also want to take up painting. I am going to try and do that this upcoming year too. I like painting and I need another hobby besides writing and watching TV, so...maybe I could take up guitar again...well I could if it wasn't locked away at the moment...but that is a different story...